"adoration" is a state of connection with something or someone bigger than me. In this unity I grow up, I become almost infinite. These three songs were written in a different time, but this album as a complete form is a merit of a period from last winter to the recent one. It was ambiguous in many ways. At some point, feeling attraction to the person I could not reach and going through the loss of my father, I found myself in a contrasting position, being equally in love and in grief. And this album is a marking, an invisible tattoo of this time.

In this period from winter to winter, I wanted to say so much, but mostly I was silent. I think it would be one of the interpretations of the cover image, a chessboard, a continuous non-verbal conversation. It is a desire of the order, but, at the same time, the impossibility to feel it in full. The accurate rectangles, drawn with a pencil and a ruler, were a way to achieve at least some piece of harmony, and balance. The way the ordered picture breaks up in pieces is a symbol of the fluidity of things that cannot be controlled. It is beautiful ruination of the order that should also be embraced with love. In music and texts, I was looking for a way to express the sensations of anxious uncertainty and a craving for a distant intimacy that cannot be fulfilled.

I feel these songs to be nostalgic, full of reminiscence. But they are nurturing, a source to be connected with the one I was, when I was the purest, being a child, a traveler, and being in love. In a way, this album was a desire to bring something essential back to life, to find a new home. And it was found in this state of adoration, in unity with something bigger than me, in another person, and, consequently, in a new form of myself.

When I tried to figure it out in words, a lot of text came in. In “ivory” I rather tried to describe than to state something. Referring to Leonard Cohen’s famous album, it is my song of love and death. It is also a conversation, a dialogue where one person talks with words, and the other talks with silence.

“adoration” is a reminiscence, almost dream-like, memories. Before writing this song, I was listening to a lot of bossa nova. I took a soft sound of the guitar, a calm telling of the story from it. And “adoration” is a reflection of the bossa nova mood. It’s just a bit slower, and probably a bit darker.

The third song, “comeback whiteroom”, is a morning-song, a travelogue on freedom, clarity, and calmness. In contrast to two other songs, this one is a monologue or a conversation with myself, that ends up with two questions hanging in the air, “why?” and “why not?”.

I imagine that these three songs could have their manifesto. It will include just several points, which are “no rush”, “no suspense”, “questioning already known things”, and “embracing love however and whenever it appears”.

Talking on the sound, I added the repetitive patterns of guitar, harp-like ukulele, and a distant howl of the flute. The airy piano in “adoration” is added by Danylo Halyko. And that’s all that helps to keep the sound as light and tender as possible.

This album tells obvious things, but it was important for me to pronounce it. These words and sounds save a trace of my loss, anxiety, affection, and they have even more intimacy, warmth to someone, and something, significant for me in the mess of this time.

I feel this album to be a slow dance, a life dance. It is an intimate force to keep it all spinning.